My world has stopped.

Seems i only blog when i hit a crisis.. so much for remembering to do it daily. Mind you I haven't had my laptop for a while but thats anothe story...

I went for my first mammogram last week. Went to Cannock, 4 miles away. I nearly didn't go, but thekids took me and we were laughing and muckin about and then we went shopping. I check myself regularly and I've never had a problem. No odd lumps or bumps so I never in all the world expected to get a letter this week telling me I needed to be checked again, this time at a better equipped hospital Burton on Trent. 15 miles in the opposite direction.
When I arrived my daughters best friends mom came into the waiting room. She has just recovered from breast cancer, after a 3 year battle.
They called me in and showed my why I was there. A white medium sized white mass. She needed to zoom in on it. She got a good picture of that. So good they decided to have a look on the ultrasound. When a seecond doctor joined the party, I started to get nervous. Between them they decided that they would do a biopsy. They injected my left breast with Novacane then cut a core biopsy taking 2 samples.
After that I went into shock and walked out to Terry and birst into tears. He took with him on his next job which took us to our biggest contract, where I met someone I hadn't seen for three years and she also has recovered from breast cancer. Its strange how both these women were sent to speak to me (both are called Sue). I feel like I'm being told that there is something but I will recover too.
I won't get the results til next Thursday so needless to say it looks like I'm standing still and everything else is still going on.

I have known so many people with not just breast cancer, but cancer in general, but I have never known a member of my family with it. Maybe thats a good sign.
Only time will tell. I think this is going to be a long week. :(